I am not jealous of your relationship. I am beyond that. I will admit there was a point where I was, but now I can’t seem to shake the feeling of a good friend abandoning me. The one person who actually got me. Even if you don’t see it that way, I had hope that you would at least fight for the friendship we had. I dread running into you on campus. You pop up in my dreams and yell at me sometime… your dad even did once.. I feel as long as this is unresolved it’s going to keep happening. It’s really hard not having someone there. I’m having a really hard time listening to my friends and leaving the situation be. I know we don’t follow each other now. I know we aren’t Facebook friends. I’m just holding out hope that you’ll read this. 

I’m just in one of those moods today. I need this weekend. 

I’ve been opening my eyes to what I have now, trying to adjust. I’ve been successful at keeping my mind of things. Somedays I could care less about it… Then there are days like today. 

I look around and don’t see anyone reaching out for me. The ones who do live elsewhere 100+ miles away. (Why can’t we all have a little island together guys?) 

Life is funny sometime. Hopefully it will point me in the right direction soon.

I have enough on my plate right now. 

-Kenneth

#personal  



Posted 9th February, 2012

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